Sometimes I wish I shake off the veneer of plausible deniability, and I've found this to be the most effective way of countering it.

Make somethingart. Anything. Inbue upon it your meaning, something you'll look back upon and be able to recall its meaning. Manifest this into a tangible object, freed from within the confines of your mind. 一人の理解者もいらない, you just have to know what you meant, and make it unpurgable.

You've now taken the step beyond the precipice, sorry, もう手遅れ, it's out of my hands now. This imprint on the world, a binding avowment; this artifact, a chain moving forward; this totem, a persisting reminder — allowing yourself the opportunity to reconnect.